[ and honestly, it is that unspoken silence - ignoring the true problem at hand - that is why this moment doesn't sour. sousuke is well aware of his disadvantages - he's been an athlete his entire life. a nationally ranked one at that. he's aware of every inch of decline his body has made over the last few months and how long it will take to work it back up.
but they're also them. and this comes as naturally to sousuke as breathing.
so when rin mentions school issued swimsuits, sousuke just lets out a breathy laugh, shaking his head as rin moves to dash into the room to go grab them. the pause rin makes has sousuke pausing as well, his breath half-caught in his throat, wondering what it could be that has rin stopped like that.
it's not until the fist is lifted that sousuke understands, the tone in rin's voice making sense now. he sees the offering, and for once feels like he is complete enough to match it, a grin sliding out across his face. he lifts his newly grown arm, tapping his fist against the knuckles of rin's. ]
No regrets. [ and he means it, in every way he could possibly mean anything at all. there isn't a single moment with rin that he regrets, not when it has led him here. ]
[When their knuckles connect, memories and tears pool at the corner of Rin's eyes, though he makes an effort not to let them overflow. In all truth, he doesn't think he'll ever truly get over the events that led them here-- even now, he wants to grab that hand, keep it safe in his hold until he's absolutely sure it's there, that nothing else will happen to it. That Sousuke won't ever have to face any pain.
But he doesn't want to taint this moment, doesn't want to curse their new beginning with fears and insecurities that should be kept in the past. So all he does is smile through the tears he isn't shedding, and somehow that's enough to lift some weight off his chest.]
Right. [A deep breath and a nod later, he feels more reassured, hoping that Sousuke wouldn't catch the feelings floating beneath the surface-- and knowing he probably did, anyway.] Wait right here, I'll be back with your swimsuit soon.
[With that, he hurries off to the pool room, dreams and ideals and bonds renewed. This time, everything would surely be all right.]
[ sousuke sees the the tears but also watches the way that rin fights them, holds them back in place of the smile, the hope. they've only been here for a few months (only, only, sousuke almost wants to retract the thought thinking about it) but it feels like a lifetime. like their friendship, their selves, have been tested and redefined.
he has accepted that his life would always involve pain, in some way, and the fact that he's all but painless in this moment is a little hard for him to wrap his head around. it seems to be difficult for rin too, if that hesitation is anything to go by, but they'll figure it out. they always do. ]
Hurry up, will you? [ it's a joke, and sousuke is smiling as rin disappears behind the door. he leans back against the wall as he waits, unable to really let his guard down when he's alone. thankfully it shouldn't take rin too long to come back, and after that?
well. they'll have to see, won't they? sousuke forgets the last time he was even in a pool, and that thought sobers him a bit. ]
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action; wow rude
Date: 2015-11-08 07:54 pm (UTC)but they're also them. and this comes as naturally to sousuke as breathing.
so when rin mentions school issued swimsuits, sousuke just lets out a breathy laugh, shaking his head as rin moves to dash into the room to go grab them. the pause rin makes has sousuke pausing as well, his breath half-caught in his throat, wondering what it could be that has rin stopped like that.
it's not until the fist is lifted that sousuke understands, the tone in rin's voice making sense now. he sees the offering, and for once feels like he is complete enough to match it, a grin sliding out across his face. he lifts his newly grown arm, tapping his fist against the knuckles of rin's. ]
No regrets. [ and he means it, in every way he could possibly mean anything at all. there isn't a single moment with rin that he regrets, not when it has led him here. ]
action; it's so you can take a nap in peace! c:
Date: 2015-11-10 03:13 pm (UTC)But he doesn't want to taint this moment, doesn't want to curse their new beginning with fears and insecurities that should be kept in the past. So all he does is smile through the tears he isn't shedding, and somehow that's enough to lift some weight off his chest.]
Right. [A deep breath and a nod later, he feels more reassured, hoping that Sousuke wouldn't catch the feelings floating beneath the surface-- and knowing he probably did, anyway.] Wait right here, I'll be back with your swimsuit soon.
[With that, he hurries off to the pool room, dreams and ideals and bonds renewed. This time, everything would surely be all right.]
action; WHO NEEDS NAPS
Date: 2015-12-14 02:17 pm (UTC)he has accepted that his life would always involve pain, in some way, and the fact that he's all but painless in this moment is a little hard for him to wrap his head around. it seems to be difficult for rin too, if that hesitation is anything to go by, but they'll figure it out. they always do. ]
Hurry up, will you? [ it's a joke, and sousuke is smiling as rin disappears behind the door. he leans back against the wall as he waits, unable to really let his guard down when he's alone. thankfully it shouldn't take rin too long to come back, and after that?
well. they'll have to see, won't they? sousuke forgets the last time he was even in a pool, and that thought sobers him a bit. ]