[ there is very little that sousuke hates more than that look - sympathy, pity, a poor sousuke i'm so sorry. he doesn't blame rin for it, knows that the reaction he has is after months of doctors, months of secrets. he hates it because it's a reminder of what he couldn't do on his own, a reminder that he's failed before. he'll probably fail this time too.
but rin's fought his own battles - he saw the race after coming back from australia. knows that it's selfish and idiotic of him to think that rin wouldn't understand how difficult this all is. but still, he sees that weight, those chips in rin's shoulders, and he hates himself more and more thinking that he'll be the reason more of those appear.
sousuke doesn't drop his eyes, though, when rin continues. he's still unsure, that feeling of disappointment and anger of all the times before rolling up again in his gut. but rin is adamant, rin believes, and sousuke trusts rin more than he does his own experience. trusts rin more than anything should be possible. rin is excited, and it pulls a small smile to the corner of sousuke's lips. a quiet, breathy laugh. ]
Lets not get ahead of ourselves. I need an arm before I can worry about my shoulder.
[ it's not like he doesn't know where rin is going with that. he does. and as much as he doesn't want to let himself get hopeful in fear of being let down, again, he's still got that quiet, weak smile there. rin's enthusiasm has always been contagious. has always been sousuke's greatest weakness.
he doesn't trust whatever magic this is supposed to be, but for rin? for that smile? he's not going to say no. ]
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but rin's fought his own battles - he saw the race after coming back from australia. knows that it's selfish and idiotic of him to think that rin wouldn't understand how difficult this all is. but still, he sees that weight, those chips in rin's shoulders, and he hates himself more and more thinking that he'll be the reason more of those appear.
sousuke doesn't drop his eyes, though, when rin continues. he's still unsure, that feeling of disappointment and anger of all the times before rolling up again in his gut. but rin is adamant, rin believes, and sousuke trusts rin more than he does his own experience. trusts rin more than anything should be possible. rin is excited, and it pulls a small smile to the corner of sousuke's lips. a quiet, breathy laugh. ]
Lets not get ahead of ourselves. I need an arm before I can worry about my shoulder.
[ it's not like he doesn't know where rin is going with that. he does. and as much as he doesn't want to let himself get hopeful in fear of being let down, again, he's still got that quiet, weak smile there. rin's enthusiasm has always been contagious. has always been sousuke's greatest weakness.
he doesn't trust whatever magic this is supposed to be, but for rin? for that smile? he's not going to say no. ]