[He snaps, almost like a natural sequence to Sousuke's words, voices nearly blending if not for a fraction of a second. The next moment, he's silent, eyes wide open, stunned by his own eagerness to oppose Sousuke's resistance-- because he knew it would come, perhaps better than he expected his own reactions.
The wall is there again, another layer to challenge their endurance, tall and strong and unrelenting. Rin remembers a time when Sousuke would be by his side, powered by dreams and ambitions much greater than their lanky bodies could hold, a Sousuke who was still carefree, and innocent, his hope unmarred by harsh reality. But the Sousuke from now is weary, disenchanted with the world that Rin insisted was still within reach, too prone to letting darkness take over; and yet, even this Sousuke who has lost all hope is still Sousuke, his treasured childhood friend with an insurmountable type of loyalty to Rin, irreplaceable in virtue and flaw alike.
Even this Sousuke, torn and battered down as he is, is still his alter ego, his other self. And if Rin can find that crack in the wall to push through, then there's no way he's leaving any part of himself behind.]
I do have to do this-- I want to. [He starts again, head held low at first, but then he decides to look straight up, to meet Sousuke dead in the eye. He's found his resolve again, and it's going to take much more than a simple no to get him to back down-- if anything at all has the power to.] We made a promise, remember? That we would look for someone to heal you, together.
[There's more to his strength, more to this obstinate drive to mend what has been broken; there's selfishness, that part of Rin that wants to take every single one of his friends along for the ride with him to share that dream, a dream Rin (hopes? wishfully thinks?) knows is still there, lying dormant in Sousuke's heart. But for now, he keeps it hidden, issues a challenge instead-- shifting the weight onto Sousuke, almost daring him to break that promise. He's selfish, and unfair, like he always is when he finds that tunnel vision, blinded to everything else in his peripheral field.
They will be side by side again, pushing together, breaking any obstacles along the way. But the first wall to surpass is the one standing between them.]
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[He snaps, almost like a natural sequence to Sousuke's words, voices nearly blending if not for a fraction of a second. The next moment, he's silent, eyes wide open, stunned by his own eagerness to oppose Sousuke's resistance-- because he knew it would come, perhaps better than he expected his own reactions.
The wall is there again, another layer to challenge their endurance, tall and strong and unrelenting. Rin remembers a time when Sousuke would be by his side, powered by dreams and ambitions much greater than their lanky bodies could hold, a Sousuke who was still carefree, and innocent, his hope unmarred by harsh reality. But the Sousuke from now is weary, disenchanted with the world that Rin insisted was still within reach, too prone to letting darkness take over; and yet, even this Sousuke who has lost all hope is still Sousuke, his treasured childhood friend with an insurmountable type of loyalty to Rin, irreplaceable in virtue and flaw alike.
Even this Sousuke, torn and battered down as he is, is still his alter ego, his other self. And if Rin can find that crack in the wall to push through, then there's no way he's leaving any part of himself behind.]
I do have to do this-- I want to. [He starts again, head held low at first, but then he decides to look straight up, to meet Sousuke dead in the eye. He's found his resolve again, and it's going to take much more than a simple no to get him to back down-- if anything at all has the power to.] We made a promise, remember? That we would look for someone to heal you, together.
[There's more to his strength, more to this obstinate drive to mend what has been broken; there's selfishness, that part of Rin that wants to take every single one of his friends along for the ride with him to share that dream, a dream Rin (hopes? wishfully thinks?) knows is still there, lying dormant in Sousuke's heart. But for now, he keeps it hidden, issues a challenge instead-- shifting the weight onto Sousuke, almost daring him to break that promise. He's selfish, and unfair, like he always is when he finds that tunnel vision, blinded to everything else in his peripheral field.
They will be side by side again, pushing together, breaking any obstacles along the way. But the first wall to surpass is the one standing between them.]